Recently I gave math classes to some ex-classmate... hey! she's kind of nice, and also she's the girlfriend of one of my friends... I had to give her the classes as a favor to him. Ok, she flunked math in tenth grade(the one that's before the last year of high school in my country) for the second time... one can imagine she may be kind of d.umb... but for my surprise she understands absolutely everything, she knows the needed formulas, she knows the first step to be taken into every kind of problem her teacher could ask her... but!!!!!! she doesn't know how to end... never, failing always in the same errors... she kind of sti.nks at clearing variables... i mean... she passes a number that is multipling to add to the other side of an expression.... and really i'm not trying with this to tell everybody that she is s.tupid... I mean... she is good... but she has awful bases...
As u may imagine I wasn't able to help her... basically three days of classes weren't enough... at least not to correct such basses... He flunked her first chance to pass the year... and when something like this happens and its ur first try to be a teacher in the subject u like the most.. u start to think.. and that happened to me... Am I good enough to help somebody?... i mean... with this in my historial as a teacher... why should somebody else trust me to explain him/her math, when i failed to Priscila?
And this questions just brings tons of desires to give up in this.... i just need somebody.. that i can help... to feel that i can trust myself... i mean... maybe if Priscila gives me a second chance and i find myself (with more time) capable of helping her... or maybe if somebdy else gives me a chance to prove it... prove I'm good enough to help somebody... maybe then i'll trust myself to teach.... for the time being... i will leave that chance to come... and i will not search for it... cause for today i don't trust me... maybe later i will be able to help things... but... for now.. i'll wait for somebody to ask for help...
≈The untrustable math teacher ≈
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