Yep, i'm somewhat looking forward to tomorrow, a day that won't be like others... yeah right, i got the same old stuff that's ending up for the first time... big final test at college (really don't care... i already passed that course... i just need a good grade to end up at top of my class... i guess i'll do my best to end up in the top).. and having to start doing that boring final job for the tedious subject that remainds me of my tortuose spanish classes at high school (not that they weren't good... but i'm simply not a fan of having my time invested in learning more of a language i have spoken since i was just a little kid) "Comunicación Técnica" :S... but that's not what have me somewhat excited... Tomorrow i'll get out of my already rutinary life... yep! somewhat unexpected E4 reunion.. just when i need it the most.... i could use a time of not thinking in college stuff... or in that g.irl... yep i can use the time of having sometime spend with ppl i can really call friends... not just with some guys with my same interests that i have known just for about 5 months (well i have known some of them for more than that... but it doesn't matter... i still can't believe in them as friends... even when i call them that way...) nop not with them... with my real friends... those who have supported me since i have memory... it may sound cursy.... but i really miss those guys... and the simple idea of seeing them tomorrow... makes me feel great... yep...
What will we do? i DON'T KNOW!!! and don't really care either... just be there... again as the E4... World: you should crumble, cause the Evil Four are getting together... we'll take the night and make it our ally... we will probably see a movie and eat tons of food.. we will disobey your rules and party in an original way... WE.... The Amazing Cell.... The Outstanding Mr. Peanuts... My best friend The Incredible Piccolo and of course... me...
≈The same old Linux≈
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
A difficult decision!
i think i never mentioned this in my blog before, but some ppl at my youth group and me where going to the WYD (World Youth Day) that is going to be next august in Germany. Initially i though i was going with them, and for the whole year i thought that it was going to help me renew my own experience with God, and maybe it would be a great experience. This trip will be for around three weeks.
Also, for these end of year i have a shot to qualify to the Costa Rican team for the Iberoamerican Math Olympics. Which means that if i qualify i'll be heading to Cartagena Colombia for two weeks in mid september.
This two trips had me both happy and full of fear. Both mean a lot to me, and i really like both ideas, however the chance that both can happen at the same time is completely freaking me out. 'Cause having both will mean to lose almost month and a half of my second semester in college, which will mean that i'll be losing almost every course. And i know i wouldn't be happy of leaving my studies aside that way. And maybe the Math Olympics are just one shot and everything... i don't even know wheater i will qualify or not but i want to give my best and qualify. I just have one more shot in this field and i am not intending to lose it. That's why... in my own fear of making both trips i chose the selfish one, i won't go to Germany, i won't go to find God... and i feel terrible, but i want to fullfill one of my biggest dreams, i want to feel that i'm really good at something, that i can be the best, or at least among the best of the world in something.. and this is my shot...
So from now on... i'll put my effort in going to Colombia... with the power of my mind... i'll do my best... cause i'm not going to Germany, just to fullfill this one dream. And i'll be in the next congress for catholic youth... i promise that to myself... cause i need to thank God for everything he has given me....
≈i≈
Also, for these end of year i have a shot to qualify to the Costa Rican team for the Iberoamerican Math Olympics. Which means that if i qualify i'll be heading to Cartagena Colombia for two weeks in mid september.
This two trips had me both happy and full of fear. Both mean a lot to me, and i really like both ideas, however the chance that both can happen at the same time is completely freaking me out. 'Cause having both will mean to lose almost month and a half of my second semester in college, which will mean that i'll be losing almost every course. And i know i wouldn't be happy of leaving my studies aside that way. And maybe the Math Olympics are just one shot and everything... i don't even know wheater i will qualify or not but i want to give my best and qualify. I just have one more shot in this field and i am not intending to lose it. That's why... in my own fear of making both trips i chose the selfish one, i won't go to Germany, i won't go to find God... and i feel terrible, but i want to fullfill one of my biggest dreams, i want to feel that i'm really good at something, that i can be the best, or at least among the best of the world in something.. and this is my shot...
So from now on... i'll put my effort in going to Colombia... with the power of my mind... i'll do my best... cause i'm not going to Germany, just to fullfill this one dream. And i'll be in the next congress for catholic youth... i promise that to myself... cause i need to thank God for everything he has given me....
≈i≈
Friday, May 13, 2005
Fall is always followed by spring
A new day shows by the corner....
a new day, with a once desired date...
things have change and when this sun rise
it won't be the same...
If i could decide, i'll say six months
aren't a change,
but her heart doesn't feel the same...
and thus lonely i am...
However i'll be strong, i'll fight again for her...
now silently, now patiently....
waiting... showing the best of me...
for her to feel ok...
Patiently... cause time is the only thing
that comes between fall and spring....
For her best friend i'll be,
till she find out what she wants me to be...
≈i≈
a new day, with a once desired date...
things have change and when this sun rise
it won't be the same...
If i could decide, i'll say six months
aren't a change,
but her heart doesn't feel the same...
and thus lonely i am...
However i'll be strong, i'll fight again for her...
now silently, now patiently....
waiting... showing the best of me...
for her to feel ok...
Patiently... cause time is the only thing
that comes between fall and spring....
For her best friend i'll be,
till she find out what she wants me to be...
≈i≈
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Conclusion? i hope not.....
Poetry was gifted to those superior minds in our society, small remains were given to us lovers....
Yesterday a hurricane came,
not in a surprise i must say,
in this dusty may.
However, i'm still not ready
not ready to leave all what happened aside
i still love her, i still want her there.
I knew something was happening i'm not dumb at all,
and i needed to know...
and as i understood things,
i hoped so badly i never asked....
The night was filled with tears,
and every second passed heavily...
towards an unwanted end...
In the end... a hug ended everything...
a hug and a see you soon...
cause after all we are friends at should never end.
And as i walk out of there,
i took a final glance to that house,
with the best memories of these six months,
and to the prettiest woman in these earth
standing under that door,
and i walked out....
knowing that my heart wanted badly
to be still at her side...
And now i'll wait.. again as a friend...
i'll wait for this to be again...
and hope someday will start again...
better tha ever...
≈i≈
Yesterday a hurricane came,
not in a surprise i must say,
in this dusty may.
However, i'm still not ready
not ready to leave all what happened aside
i still love her, i still want her there.
I knew something was happening i'm not dumb at all,
and i needed to know...
and as i understood things,
i hoped so badly i never asked....
The night was filled with tears,
and every second passed heavily...
towards an unwanted end...
In the end... a hug ended everything...
a hug and a see you soon...
cause after all we are friends at should never end.
And as i walk out of there,
i took a final glance to that house,
with the best memories of these six months,
and to the prettiest woman in these earth
standing under that door,
and i walked out....
knowing that my heart wanted badly
to be still at her side...
And now i'll wait.. again as a friend...
i'll wait for this to be again...
and hope someday will start again...
better tha ever...
≈i≈
Friday, May 06, 2005
Lower case "i"
Warning: this post might be the result of a severly low self-esteem, please don't crytisize it to hard...
i love English! is just a great language, i like how things sound, and how some kind of stuff can be express with a great feeling. i think it is almost as good as spanish (my native language), if we leave aside romantic issues.... where spanish rocks! well... i think i'm kind of good at using it... (correct me if i'm wrong please in that sense) well there's just one little thing i don't agree with.... and some ppl might notice at simple sight.... and it is the use of the pronoun for the first person in singular... I!
yep.... as many might notice i try to avoid writing "i" in upper case or capital letter as it should be written.... and i have my reassons.... i feel it's completely self-centered..... why should i write the personal pronoun that refers to me in upper case.... but write in lower case the one that refers to the person right next to me? am i better than him/her? i don't think so.... everybody should be the same.... no matter who they are.... let's not discriminate ppl like that.... and bring a tribute to lower case "i"... or if you prefer to upper case "You".... either i'm fine with....
≈i≈
i love English! is just a great language, i like how things sound, and how some kind of stuff can be express with a great feeling. i think it is almost as good as spanish (my native language), if we leave aside romantic issues.... where spanish rocks! well... i think i'm kind of good at using it... (correct me if i'm wrong please in that sense) well there's just one little thing i don't agree with.... and some ppl might notice at simple sight.... and it is the use of the pronoun for the first person in singular... I!
yep.... as many might notice i try to avoid writing "i" in upper case or capital letter as it should be written.... and i have my reassons.... i feel it's completely self-centered..... why should i write the personal pronoun that refers to me in upper case.... but write in lower case the one that refers to the person right next to me? am i better than him/her? i don't think so.... everybody should be the same.... no matter who they are.... let's not discriminate ppl like that.... and bring a tribute to lower case "i"... or if you prefer to upper case "You".... either i'm fine with....
≈i≈
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