Ok.... some of the ones reading knowing me extremely well will notice that i couldn't have written this at the date it says it was written... actually i decided to put the date of the first time i came up with the idea.... imagine the picture... me... coming out from the my second math test of four hours and a half.... the first had been the day before.... my mind? actually there was no mind... i am pretty sure of that....
Six problems.... i got to the answer in two of them... however.... just in one of them i am sure i got all the points... the other one.... i just found the answer.... but couldn't demonstrate it correctly.... 9 hours in six problems... what a waste of time....
However as i am coming out from that damned place door... i feel like if a burdain that had being in my back for three years, was removed by someone who had the most terrifying face of disappointment i have ever seen... feeling bad i start thinking i should write something in my blog.... writting is something i kind of like even when i sometimes have trouble finding words that express my feelings and i can become really picky in that way...
As i was thinking on exactly what to write.... i knew that no matter what i do... math will come up to collation.... it was just the only way things could happen.... but i tried to find a really good topic... i didn't wanted this to be the corner where i could repress all my desperate failure feelings.... i just wanted something right.... something i could be proud of....
However then i realized something.... math is a really weird and sucky topic.... and i don't care if half my life i have spend it thinking that math rules.... it should never be combined with critical writting... when u come out from a test ur mind is so really squeezed that u'll never find the right words.... actually my talking after a test is mostly monosyllabical!!!! it sounds weird but its kind of true... too long words come to be difficult to use... and explaining "your solutions" to the other ppl seems imposible! if i am explaining that i drawed a parallel line to the segment AB(just an example) i'll be saying: "and i drew a.... line..... it was... similar to AB... but a little lower...." i really mean it.... making things to have sense is so but so hard at those times...
My conclusion.... i'll never again think what to write after one of those tests.... my really awfull mood at those times plus my own mind totally shocked by the extensive math frustratuion make writing imposible..... and after all.... it could end up in many posts as ilogic as this one....
≈Shocked≈
I'm so happy i waited till now(Sunday 16th, 10pm, for those wondering) to write this because now ideas seem to make sense and actually the post don't seem bad at all.... in the end... i am proud of it.... contradictory? maybe.... but i really don't care.....
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