These days have being weird.... again! yeah! time has passed and i am in the worst part of my semester... two weeks and i should be in vacation.... wohoo... but things aren't going as well as i wanted... things have get depressing... problems with assignements and everything... nothing has being easy...
As the problems arrise i feel the need to have someone there... i want to have a shoulder to cry... someone to hear how things are going... and i know i got my friends... they will hear me if i need to... but its not the same.. i need support differently.. that support you only have when someone cares really much about you... i need someone there... and .... i have noone to fill that space... i sometimes go to Alicia.... but she is a little freaked out since i told her i have had this kind of feelings for her in the past... and i don't have them right now... and won't have them if God helps me... but things have being akward with her... but my mind keeps bringing memories from sometime ago... memories when someone made me happy... when someone was there to hear my frustrations.. to make me feel ok again.... when that someone was able to destroy any problem with just one perfect kiss... and i dreamed with that kiss.. it was tender... soft... completely innocent... like those you give only when tou really love the other person.. i dreamed with it... it was perfect.... again... with her... and this has me in a thougher spot yet... cause i know how impossible is to get that back... i won't have again.. and in my dream she reminded that to me... she told me she kissed me cause she wanted to know if she had still feelings for me... and even when she found she do.... nothing will change cause of her boyfriend.... yep... even my dream... with the perfect kiss.. wasn't that perfect... it was real..i think i felt her lips again... crossing with mine.... i swear i felt it.... like i am not feeling it ever again..... i just hope i can find happiness someday... i just hope for things to come right for me soon.... i just have a little bit of hope....
Hope
